Sasuke X Sakura Doujinshi

Nervosa io??naaaaa

time fuck shit!! o.o
It was a long awaited weekend and I'm watching a little bit?? the snow to ruin everything!! TODAY IT IS THREE METERS SO THAT NO ONE LEAVES AND I FEEL on purpose! o.o

had organized everything !!!!! o.o Friday night ... all night with concerts by the news! * O * Saturday wandering through the night Chinese cassino .... and then .... then strolled to drink at home to watch code blue .. Sunday .. another little bit together and then I would be back at The Eagle .... FUCK SNOW! For once Mom was convinced that from myself ... I hate you! and I hate her because she is the bird of malagurio!! did not want me to go and in fact did not go!!

But let's start with order!! At 15 makes some pretty nice bow that died within 2 seconds ... plus a few knobs to 17:00 but no one is panicked at 17:35 ... all Neapolitans who had to catch the bus started to battered balls of the moron and the bar which has the bastard knocked out in the snow ... I had become a beautiful snowman!! mery calls me at 18 ... the girl with whom I should spend the weekend .... I can not climb MERY A CASSINO HERE WHY DO NOT WALK, CI ONO a lot of accidents. at 18:45 reminds me: MERY NOT FROM HERE The situation is tragic. poor was in tears! I go into the bar and ask the bitch, so kind, if the departure was transported to dmn morning ... NO THAT SHE WAS AGAINST THE LAW. I was pissed off, I called Dad and I got to venre resumes! I'm 26 € ticket slut filthy slut of a snow jessica the girl's generation! o.o and Dad ... when you say bad luck comes along and behind him there is a bus !!!!! E_e ;

god nervosoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

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[meme] Top of 2010

Taken from the dear gashinenai  


TOP 5 JOHNNY'S SONGS OF 2010
1)    Troublemaker – Arashi
2)    LIFE – Kanjani8
3)    Hatenai Sora – Arashi
4)    Gift – Arashi
5)    Ukiyo Odoribito – Kanjani8


TOP 5 NON JOHNNY'S SONGS OF 2010
1)    Manazashi – Honey L Days
2)    Endless Fighters - AAA
3)    Dream After Dream - AAA
4)    Please Stay With Me – YUI
5)    Lucifer - SHINEE


TOP 5 PVs OF 2010
1)    Hatenai Sora – Arashi
2)    Monster - Arashi
3)    Animal Magic – Kanjani8
4)    Love Yourself – KAT-TUN
5)    Serenade - Versailles


TOP 5 BANDS OF 2010
1)    Arashi
2)    Kanjani8
3)    AAA
4)    KAT-TUN
5)    Errr… don’t know


TOP 5 OTPs OF 2010
1)    Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki (Arashi)
2)    Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari (Arashi)
3)    Kusunoki Taiga/Miyase Sakura (Natsu Koi wa Niji Iro ni Kagayaku)
4)    Yufune Tetsuro/Okada Yuya (Rookies)
5)    Kang Moo Kyul/Byun Jung In (Mary Stayed Out All Night)


TOP 10 DRAMAS OF 2010
1)    Tumbling
2)    Freeter, Ie Wo Kau
3)    Mary Stayed Out All Night
4)    Kaibutsu-kun
5)    Wagaya no Rekishi (well... it’s not a proper drama U_U)
6)    Q10
7)    Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge
8)    Natsu Koi Wa Niji Iro Ni Kagayaku
9)    Tokuji Kabachi!
10) Yankee-kun to Megane-chan

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Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate


But it's not that I hate her! I do not like here! uu

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Day 15 - A song that describes you


A song that describes me oh my ....... Hmmmm I do not have a song that describes me!! OO

oh my God maybe this ....

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Wounds that can be healed [1/3]

Title: Wounds That Can Be Healed
Author: rosa_elefante
Group: Arashi
Characters: Aiba Masaki, Sakurai Sho
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Genre: yaoi, angst
Rating: PG
Warnings: sequel to Hearts' Bounds
Abstract: with Hearts' Bounds, were examined the thoughts of Sho and Aiba on their relationship, now ended. Here we return to the present, to see how they are living this break.
Notes: is divided into three parts: one for Sho, one for Aiba, and one for both. The sentences at the beginning of each part are from the song Aitakute Aitakute of Kana Nishino
Disclaimer: With my writing, published without any profit, I will not give true representation of the character of these people, or offend in any way

"'Shiawase ni Natte it' to
Kimi no mae ja otonabutte
Sonna koto kokoro no naka
omowa Zettai ni ja nai? "

" "I hope you'll find happiness"
I try to act like an adult in front of you inside my heart

But I Do not Feel That Way at all & rdquo ;

SHO

There are sounds that do not you ever get used.
No matter how many times you hear from them. How are deeply entwined with your past - a time of life that you can not forget - and in this, and nails driven into your life.
A phone that rings in the middle of the night is a scar that does not heal. A noise that penetrates the flesh - reopens - and pull the nerves.
It hurts deep down - early in the bones - and awakens all kinds of fears.
When he opens his eyes, think of Sho Aiba.
It's hard to feel strong after having experienced a sleepless night. The fatigue seems
tremble in every breath, every step. In any action to be taken, that becomes huge and heavy. In everything you see. That seems more distant.

sighs, and rings the bell of that enormous house that has seen him grow.
not feel ready to tackle ever - and goodness knows that only she is at home, otherwise there would never be gone.
And he knows it will never be ready, but maybe in a few week will have been able to cover everything - every nerve - rationalization of sufficient pain to fade. Perhaps the past few months, everything will not be so clear and loud. Maybe in a few years, nothing will do more harm.
sighed again as the door opens. Never stand in the doorway, arms crossed over his chest, watching him, severely. Finally, you do see
! - Says moving away to get them into the empty house.
-days were quite full, between work and rest ...- he says.
His sister shook her head, before you embrace it. Several full-
, of course! - Ironically, but it is glad to see him is evident from the force with which it is running out. From the tenderness with which the abrupt changes hands on the hair: a single stroke, rapid, almost caress it is not.
Sho knows that dying to comment on his situation.
Never has something to say, after all, or would not be his sister and, above all, a woman .
For a moment, tried to sneak away from the conversation wondering Shu, work, whatever. But it would be cowardly, and even stupid: Never give better this time, to avoid later, the worst.
sits at the table with her, takes the glass of wine. So you've already
- find an apartment? - question his sister swallowed the first sip. Almost absent-mindedly.
Even that is characteristic of him: any discussion must address, it always takes a long distance. Sho knows that it takes a bit of caution.
nods.
Yes, for now. But there is nothing definitive.
The woman looks at him, unconvinced.
-This house is always open, you know. Not good for you to be alone at this time. The
glances annoyance.
-I am not ill, Mai - replies dryly - Not in mourning. They are simply gone to live somewhere else.
-Right. Alone - remarked the other, raising an eyebrow.
It's no secret what he is implying.
In seven years, Sho does not understand what there is, in Aiba, able to make it so upsetting. Puffs, leaning back in his chair. "Maybe I need it, you think? I have to make clear a bit 'of things. And I can not do it if I were all around.
His sister is confined to secure it. And Sho realizes that it is absurd, but even if he is the greater, is not much more mature than when he was ten years, when Mai has that look. When
shakes his head in that way.
The name of Masaki, on his lips, is divided into sounds completely different from those that Sho is used.
His sister has always had the curious ability to make strangers even more familiar words.
-I am sorry for how things went, Sho - Never back supports the back of the chair. The spinning glass of wine between his fingers, as she says, without looking, but I am convinced that it was good after all. Aiba-kun and you're too different, and that sort of relationship you had was not at all healthy.
-Look at the kind of relationship is not over yet, eh-specific Sho - We are by assessing whether it is appropriate to make some changes. That's it. E-
your curious conception of what a relationship between two people is one of these, I hope.
She bites his tongue-may. To a certain extent.
And Never smiles. It does not even need words to say, "I told you." Just smile. Done that.
and deep sense of relief that despite everything you hear in his voice when he says, floor-is. It seems to me a great idea.
-not an idea, Mai - replies annoyed - is simply to bring a report to their emotional growth. When we started we were kids.
-The point is that some people never ceases to be, Sho.
-The point is that this is also the fascination of some people.
-Yeah. - Never pour more wine. Calmly.
Sho sighed, closing her eyes-then you wonder if I've been avoiding for weeks to meet you.
-E 'that you finally made the right choice, Sho. To leave. The way I see it there is nothing to judge, and I wish you were not attempting to retrace your steps. If a relationship has not worked in seven years will never work. Aiba-san has always been too immature for you.
- Either I am too immature for him. There are faults, Mai. And you're biased against him. Just because in twenty years we decided that we could be together and he has refused. Never
shakes his head in front of his growing irritation. I'm not giving
-blame anyone. In a story, especially one that has the other person gives you. And I'm sure you have your reasons for still being tied to Aiba-san, after all these years. Just as he is bound to you. - Resting the glass on the table to look at the watch on the wrist-which, however, so again tonight, ok? Now I have to go to work. Much remains to dinner, right? He shakes his
head, nervously.
-I do not know, never. I'm busy, really.
While out of the house, never reflects that wants nothing more than his own good.
He always knew, since he was a kid.
Even when my stomach felt tight the anxiety of having to rely on his secret to the younger sister who seemed much more mature than him, he knew that, whatever was his reaction would be dictated only by love. And fear, inability to understand, perhaps. But with love, always.
Now, many years later, she realizes that everything turned out for the best. Could not ask for more, by Mai, who has already asked a lot.
But sometimes the feeling is not what he expected his sister. And it is a bitter suspicion, vague ... that has nothing to do with mutual disappointment that binds him to his parents. What divides them. Something sweet, however: a misunderstanding needed, cemented by affection.
But still a vacuum.
And perhaps, you also feel the emptiness inside.

Outside the street is dark.
has a strange way to welcome the evening, the neighborhood: Sho has always thought.
By dint of living there you get used to, but looking at it with eyes an alien is different. Feel more details.
Masaki has always hated.
There was impatience in him deep into the stillness. Towards that discretion. Like a spider web that closed the loopholes.
Moreover, Sho can not imagine a more different from Aiba. He knows
appreciate it instead. The rest. Join
studio that has just rented. Perfectly ordered. Aseptic and too empty.
not used to being alone, Sho. He does not remember ever having spent a long period in the company of himself.
friends once joked, saying that we should be careful and keep up with him, studying because he lost track of time. It would be too easy for him, left at the mercy of his books and his thoughts, lose contact with the world.
will be charged to hear the sound of the arrival of an email. The opening is by Nino.
widened his eyes sometimes wonders if his friend to do it on purpose, or if his own is simply a bad timing. Aiba
can call to tell him that tomorrow morning we start an hour later?
I can not contact him or his manager, not to mention the other two.
I would do, but are about to start shooting.
Thanks.
could simply send him an email, Sho thinks with irritation. But
knows what his friends wish that the two of them have at least a minimum of dialogue. For the good of the group.
And their friendship that has lasted more than a decade. The awareness of having to call
Aiba gradually comes up to stop the heart. Swallows, thinking it might just send him an email. To work is easy because everyone is there. Now it is not at all.
has done a lot for today - have done enough. And spent a night in hell: he needs to rest for the carburetor. Rest, and warm blankets up over his chin. Since the ears. A close out of the silence that makes you feel even stronger without him.
takes a deep breath, however, and extends his hand to dial a number.
Until two months ago, that was the home number.
is destabilizing time, press the same digit and ask if hurt.
feel a twinge in my stomach to think that there is something disturbing. Someone. Aiba
I wonder if it will be at home, then.
-Hey. Answer
destabilizing. Item relaxed and serene. Another world.
Masaki.
He closes his eyes. Breathe.
-Hello. It's me.
The silence seems to beat like a drum in your ear. Temple.
-Hello- Aiba's voice finally said, but now it's a different voice. More tense. Lower.
-Sorry if I'm at this, but ...
The voice stops. It's strange, talk Aiba, as well.
can almost imagine it, Aiba. Standing next to the phone, frowning. The term that always when on the defensive.
And he asks, once again, as we have done to come to this situation.
The tone of voice, meanwhile, has changed again.
now is vaguely alarmed. Just warmer.
-okay?
nods.
Yes, yes. It was just a message from Nino, for tomorrow ...
seems almost normal to give that information to work. As if it were nothing but two colleagues.
Sho smiles, and the temptation to tell him I love him for a second burn on the tip of the tongue, as the need to kiss him. And yet talk of other things, to return those once. Them. Cala
silence. Sho feels that the call is about to end.
But Aiba speaks again.
-Oh, I decided to learn to play the drums.
-Ah.
does not understand what this has to do with him, but does not tell him.
-I 've also bought. Just ... I guess I'll remove your studio for a place for her, Sho ...- says finally, almost too softly.
And he stops. Because it's as if only now all become true. Definitive.
after two months. Masaki
unmount his studio. He ammucchierà books in his studio, or somewhere else. Masaki
continue to live in her apartment. He will have to invent something.
is now coming hours.
-Yes, certainly. - Answered, wondering if the break was long when he perceived him. If the hesitation has been felt. If Aiba Can you imagine standing on that empty apartment, as he unable to view their stay. And her beautiful face, no smile. -Then I'll have to pick up some books.
-Do Not Disturb, you can bring them to work. You need not come this far.
He nods, relieved.
Yes, it is better. I'll get a list of the most urgent ... for others there will be time.
It would not have wanted to say.
do not need things to make everything more real.
The relief of not having to meet in private is already turning into pain.
-Perfect - the voice in the handset is really cold. Far-nothin 'else?
-No-Sho shakes his head and Goodnight.
-Goodnight, Sho.
Her breath, a moment longer, then the sound of broken communication.
tone, to hurt your ears.
He lowers the phone, go back to lean against the wall.
The silence around her is more dense and oppressive than before.
And Sho knows, that cover the ears with the blankets will not be enough to make it sweeter.
Not tonight, not ever.

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Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love


Mmmh Oh boh !!!!! TT___TT I have not the faintest idea!! We u_u
local mind of all the songs I've heard for 21 years is in part ......


* * ten minutes later ..
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Diciam hour after it goes!!
Ok .... I chose this only because I have good memories attached!
* O * The celebration of my 18 years at some point there is the tradition that the birthday girl dances with her father. .. but in my case it was not so! X ° D I danced with Granny!: ') Song to be precise! Oh God I was very much ashamed because my grandfather is good at dancing style mazurka and waltz dances sti ... not me! ^ ^ sq km but when I saw the video I started to cry! : D I was disappointed that I did not dance with Daddy! ok, I will refer to my marriage with pine! uu Among other things they have not sung the song the nomads but the boy of my cousin! XDD that is also a piano bar!! ;

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Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure


Any comment is highly unnecessary for me ... LOL

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Day 12: A song from a band you hate


Band Hmmm .... not that I hate is that I hate them ... I do not like a skin! Then the list is long .....

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Day 11: A song from your favorite band


SHIT THIS IS DIFFICULT! Oh well then I have two! never and will not choose between them ... also because one is American ... the other is giappica! uu

begin by the American! LINKIN PARK .... name a legend for me! I love them! Chester and I love her voice ... I shudder to Madonna when he screams the whole body! And my best friend for her birthday I got the DVD LIVE IN TOKYO!! love love it!! But since k is a trieste sure I'll have to study for christmas! XD
then to start a beautiful song I love is Faint


So .... instead of the Giappica .. ... OF COURSE I NEWS !!!!!!!!! Say what the song is hard ... I love them all! >_____\u0026lt; ... I will count and will choose the first one that comes out! U_U Of course I prefer the version of the Diamont party ... everyone was so pucci and shige version Footlocker! XDD but this version is beautiful!!

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Day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep


ok ..... did not make the coating and this was the only video I found!! X ° D
Paul Meneguzzi_ Seven moons! LOL

a song with a story behind amazing! A year I had to put to sea at full volume with the ipod because my cousin WORST OF RUSSIAN TRAIN!! COMPARISON TO THE TRAIN IS NOT NOISE !!!!!! And the truth '! Apart from that could make me fall asleep!! X ° D

Buon'ascolto and Good Sleep!

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Day 09: A song that you can dance to


LOL a song that I can dance?? or better that I can dance!! is the only this !!!!!: D: D: D: D

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Day 08: A song that you know all the words to



I LOVE Tiziano!:) its all I know all the songs by heart! !
* O * And I'm not like some moron who stopped following him only because he is gay! >.> Is GREAT! UU

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Day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event


Here this is too easy! (


I believe the reason is quite obvious .....

The song reminds me too many bad memories and I do not add more!!
this song but I prefer the version of "our"


LOL cause the death of certain parts such as "99 Round" that do not currently have more than 99 but the centinuaio! @. @ and say that a Once there was a single !!!!!! ç___ç

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Day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere


Hmmmm ... a song that reminds me of a place .... let's see ..... I would say

Waka Waka!! X ° D Associated with the club where I go on Saturday or the Irish pub! X ° D LOL I constricting them to dance but since I do not like and do not know how to dance we invented like a ballet that .... Then they carried out my girls! They called him "the dance of mamy" do not tell you what it is out incredible! X ° D

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Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone


ahahahahahaha!! Oh God I opened the tube and advised me this song !!!!!! Which reminds me beyond belief my Sensei!! \u0026lt;3 or vikyfaxerfeit

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Day 04: A song that makes you sad


Hehe I have no doubt about this !!!!!
now is a given in fact ... the intro part and the valves are open!! I always cry qesto feeling too sad song ... ... and then it is the ost of 1 Litre of tears as I can not cry?? is linked to so many wonderful part .... like when you said ...." I like Haruto "...." Perhaps .."..." Probably ".... or all ' Ulimate bet when Aya asks him to read the diaries he wrote ..... ..... or when they met in short, a wonderful song in which they have done so many wonderful videos!

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Day 03: A song that makes you happy



safe course is ROkkugo T! of Super Junior! ahahahahahahaha Holy Mother makes me happy too this song !!!!!: D

* The watermelon cheering! XD *

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Day 02: Your least favorite song


Mmmh The truth is that I have not the faintest idea!! oo


They love them !!!!! by Aquila good .... but this just can not make me pleasure!! X ° D

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Day 01: Your favorite song



very hard choice! uu

Surely you think my favorite song ever is a Pine ... but NO!! LOL I have surprised you?? X ° D

My favorite song is this: Ayumi Hamasaki _Dearest!





Non è Adorabile??? *O*
La amo!!!!

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a Music Day

Anche io sono caduta in tentazioneee!!!! LOL


Day 01: Your favorite song
Day 02: Your least favorite song
Day 03: A song that makes you happy
Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08: A song that you know all the words to
Day 09: A song that you can dance to
Day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11: A song from your favorite band
Day 12: A song from a band you hate
Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song That you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A Song That You Wish You Could play
Day 28 - A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

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RyoPi Lav Lav


these things I can not leggereeee!! * O * Then I fall in love Pino more and more! I've always loved the couple RyoPi .... for the bond that binds them and everything!! You see the little children who are close friends !!!!* O * and I think Ryo is jealous of mooooooooolto Toma and Jin * X ° D

However .... hanging out on LJ I found these news items that made me your heart melt! * O *

The interview he did with Ryo-chan Pinuccio when they were still pure and chaste!

ryopilover.livejournal.com/67732.html :

"Yamapi Reveals That Ryo and Pi to us slept together one bed The Same" Especially when they see ghosts film rolls * *


anyway .... the interview is so pucciaaaaa!! Especially the beginning!! Tender Ryo-chan!! \u0026lt;3 \u0026lt;3 \u0026lt;3

ryopilover.livejournal.com/36301.html # cutid1 LOL Never remove food or pudding Pino! known to be violent!: D Reminds me of Nagase in My boss My Hero!: D In my opinion it has infected !!!!!! ahahahahahaaha!! However, I
precisely the thing ... you never know !!!!!: D

Kyaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!! I love this part instead: D community.livejournal.com/ryo_pi/2576. html # cutid1 we have made some mention of ragazzuoli! * O *

If Yamapi drowns, I'll save HIM!
(Nishikido - Myojo 1999.10) Amoreeeeeeeeeeee \u0026lt;3


Nishikido Gave me a silver ring and it fits just right. Nishikido, thank you for your birthday present! Another guy But a guy giving a ring, Somehow it makes you get a bit of goosebumps. But I really like it very much!
(Yamashita - Wink Up 2000.06 ) Now if pine gives the ring to the girl what gives?? XD


" ~ Oh Baby! "Ryo-chan Should Understand from this. (Laugh) Lately he calls often and when I say “ Oh~ Baby ” he’ll definitely reply with “ Oh~ baby, what are you doing? ” (Laugh)
(Yamashita - Potato 2004.04)


*rotola per la stanza*

Yamapi : Tell me one thing you like about Tokyo and Osaka.
Ryo-chan : Osaka because my family is there. Tokyo because Yamapi is here. (Heart)
(NEWS Prime)



Vabbè...il resto leggetelo voi!!! :P

 
ryo-x-pi.livejournal.com/27801.html now pretend to know why all these goodies have not made documentaries !!!!! Happy News Year 2006 2006.01, 2006.04 Spring concerts I WANT THEM!! I'm happy but I want them also Fancam vedereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee>. \u0026lt;


All Credit are ryo_pi and their girls who have posted in this community! * O *

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Hearts' bounds [4/4]

Title: Hearts' bounds
Genre: angst, yaoi
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Disclaimer: these people do not belong to me, and though I belonged there I would live happily ever>. \u0026lt;
Notes: After 'is not a fanfiction ', I decided that I'd never written stuff that did not have a happy ending. Instead ... And we are falling back T_T
'divided into 4 parts, two from the perspective of Sho, two to Aiba. And the phrases found at the cone drawn from the song 'Desire' of the Baru and Yasu Kanjani8
Parties previous Part - Part - Part Three

"Shibatte ... de motto to mitsumetete
Ubatte ... in Kasane kuchibiru
Hanasanaide yowasete anatomic de ... kono mama "

" Tie me up with love ...
Steal me feel at my lips and bring them together ...
Do not let go and let me get drunk with you, just like this "

AIBA

I was stunned. I
the rain lashes, all over his face, and the perception of the razor-sharp Your body quickly walked next to me.
It sounds stupid, but it was then that I am aware of your body is falling apart.
Of course I knew you were a man. My mind knew it. Yet it was as we walked side by side that the swarming of my thoughts was clotted in front of that revelation.
were a boy. Male hands, lips, male, male body. The tone of voice.
A boy.
This certainty I would burst in my chest every time our elbows touched accidentally. My head was spinning.
Initially I really wanted to invite only at home, waiting for the storm pass, offer you something. But two seconds after we started walking, my mind could not conceive that the prospect of another touch.
Sho, the truth was that I had never crossed my mind to bring a guy home. Sure, I had often dreamed, but with the same state of mind with which lingers in every fantasy. Without any real conviction.
It's not that I fear: it was another world to peek through the keyhole, remaining anchored in the knowledge that I could not open that door. That my world was different.
With you, I lost all the coordinates.
It's funny looking back now, but then I had no idea what to invent to make you understand that you wanted. And I was not even certain that you were gay, I was interested in me.
you imagine the next day, laugh with your colleagues at the university.
"I can not believe, one of the members of your group?"
"Gay!"
"I'm telling you he has tried with me!"
"Incredible!" I did not realize
nothing. Neither you, nor myself, and the inexperience abysmal that I had accumulated.
But I did not care. My expectations at the time stopped when I pressed my lips on yours. After the world could also explode.
That you had pushed me away, you'd laugh at me, you'd be mad or you would have spoken softly compassionate. I did not care.
I wanted to kiss you, if only for a moment.
I felt as if I were to do something crazy and dangerous: the very thought made me dizzy.
And fuck, it was difficult. Difficult as it was after, always. Every time I tried to get close, every time I touch you and forces me to control myself, to choose the best time, not to look too immature.
I went to bed with so many people, Sho, you know. Yet the desire that I felt with you I never felt with anyone else. With all was different. With the other was like.
With you, it was also pain.
I've had many lovers, but I just loved you.
I'm in love with other people, and I still love you. Why
loved you first of all my unconsciousness, and then my weakness.
He loved the boy of twenty who did not know what it means to love someone. Want someone to play for both all in one breath.
I've never been brave. My courage is not to think, close your eyes and jump. Yet there was always dizzy, so much to make me lose my balance. You were apnea. Water.
For the first time I was ashamed to death of hellish chaos that reigned in my house. For once I wished a bigger house, more beautiful, as an adult. For you.
But I want to touch you just devastating. The panting for travel, clothes wet, the rain in my hair.

"Cazzocazzocazzo"
slamming doors. Looking askance.
Smile.
"Thunder"
"Yeah ..."
beating heart.
"I'm a. .. I'm going to get a towel "
" Thank You "
vertigo.
"I'll be right"
"Okay,"
Hold your breath ... and jump.

do not know where I found the strength to stop my steps that day. I only know that the world seemed to topple over when I turned and I well remember my clenched fists on your arms. Your mouth enveloped me.
was different from the fantasies, other than that I had exchanged kisses with the girls or the ones I had tasted in my sleep. Other than those I saw in the movies. Different, because my body evaporates on your tongue and was everywhere against the chest, neck, stomach as empty air chills and I trickled down my spine.
It was not romantic. It was not me. I was lost in one of your breaths, so that sometimes I think I'm still there.
clenched fists on your shirt even though it was obvious that I'd gone, and urges you on the bed without lucidity, driven entirely by instinct. I remember to have you devoured my lips, have you pulled off his pants with confused gestures of those reels to keep afloat. I remember having you bite too hard, have you touched with too much haste. But there was another time when I felt like I had my , Sho. Not even when I was the six seriously, when I learned to read the ripples of your face, even when the boredom was something more private.
Then, we were still innocent.
And not remember getting longer allowed to breathe your smell so thoroughly poisoned that I do not remember feeling more than pleased to hear from you and nothing else. There was no need to say anything, no pride to be protected. Only you. And me.
was probably the worst performance of my life, yet I never felt so man as when you came in me.
You know it always to be gay. But really discover what it means to be alone with sex, and in any other way. Need a male body against you, perceive both the strength and fragility. Educate yourself to the experience.
Perhaps the awareness of what is right that very afternoon, and the fact that you have played a crucial role so that he could not tie myself forever to you.
When it was over, you left when you fall on the mattress beside me, I realized that I was madly in love. Although it was early, even if he was mad. Although it made no sense, and you will probably have laughed and shook his head.
I have loved you.
There are things that I never said that afternoon, things that I think you did not even suspect. I'd begun to touch you just to go slower, for example. To convince you that I was really touching. Or I wish I had the courage to ask to stay with me all night. Find the courage to touch you slowly, to watch her sleep, hear you breathing.
But I did not do any of this.
And I told you I loved you because I had already guessed what would be the way I should go if you hope to reach you, I had learned while I kissed your lips and followed my own, and seconded my motion for leave space .
What you experience is always excited, and I was barely twenty years. The strength, my weakness and I still feel like me. The solidity. And I do not even now that I have grown closer and closer to thirty years. I've never been an adult, never quite stable.
Our original sin was sex: it was enough for a bite and we were already condemned.
keep watching, lying on your side, and I was happy as can be a kid. Unaware of all, lost in the beauty of the moment. Into the present. You
, amused, watching me. Are you astonished that I could be so enchanted by your hands.
did not understand. You could not understand.

'E' I spent that night, trying to remember the details "
" of my hands? "
" Mh "
hesitation.
"Do you ever think in pictures, Sho-kun?"
"Rarely. I am afraid to have a mathematical mind rather than "
" Yet, look at "
fingers interlaced backlight.
"Look ..."
Silence.
"Do you see the colors, the contrasts? Lines? "
" Lines? "
" You carved the bones I've ever seen. View knuckles ... "
Silence.
"And look at me, but ... tendons, the curves ... "

Sometimes I wanted to shout in his face, while disagreeing, or even whispered in his ear while we were making love.
Look at the curves.
Please look really, my body. Also force him.
You would not understand. And I do not know if you would understand now, Sho, the desperate, fearful that I need to turn their backs forever. Stop looking at his hands, to destroy all of your photography. And then laugh at myself for never being able to touch you if not with caresses, for failing to do anything but watch.
Watching you grow, live and begin to age.
Watching you tear his eyes change position. A thousand times. Change form. Without knowing what to show you, show me the same thing. What a photo shoot.
And then, at the end of everything, watching you leave.

"Tsuruta Yuku wa doko made demo ... anatagoto
Kitsuku Daku wa ... Atashi dake de yogasasete ... to de "

" I'll take you anywhere, all of you
I'll hold you tightly, I'll be the only one to mess you up with love "

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Alllllllllor!! It snows ..... or better do not know what he should not even throw down!! Snow, hail, rain .... mah!! the only thing certain is that the FREDDOOOO finally arrived! However

..... Making the math to arrive in January 2011 without a penny becouse between New Year and Christmas gifts .... my ding you put wings and fly away from portadinidini !!!!!

January and released on CD by Pino!! and I want it!! I do not know how to do it!! o.o Sure .... I will order someone for me in January that will make some want to order .... there is nobody who will do an order in January?? X ° D

2011 promises a year of great releases!: D

January Pino Album February ... the Pine FILM!! sure more news will come out juicy ... I am loving more and more ... for more on the package should arrive in January! that my mother will be in place by December at Russian customs! * cough

cough * maybe I can even drop in December to Cassino by mery! \u0026lt;3 and I have to find a day of the Christmas holiday to go to Ema! for more than 15 I have the chemistry exam!! ç____ç PANICOOOO!! I boccerà n'altra time!! ç_____ç

and Onee and Sensei! most likely (75% yes) in August / September I get on to you! ! U___U Dad is in agreement ... Mother tze, as usual, no! Sensei did you meet her you know how it is done!

are happy too! Time so I'll be with my Onee! \u0026lt;3
and the sensei who will be my guide must go to Sensei !!!** BROOM! ahahahahahahhaha !!!!!!!!

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[traduzione] 8UPPERS - PERSONAGGI

8UPPERS now seen several times, and say that? I loved it. The film and
Kanjani. They are fantastic, come on. And I liked how they prepared for this project in detail from ... Wonderful World? Yes, there O_O
As Arashi will always be the only and only, I'm really happy about the growing popularity of Eito! Also from the musical point of view I find it very grown up (well, LIFE is one of the most beautiful songs ever)
Anyway, back to the main topic (which was?), I found two days ago, the English translation of 8UPPERS description of the characters, and I made to translate it (after many translations of stuff Arashi, the first of Kanjani ♥)
My translations are done from English into Italian, so often opt for a translation of 'way' rather than literal. Thanks for
Inglese translation: paaaaan
Scan credits: dozchan

NOTE: small problem with the translation. I had no idea how to translate the word 'destroyers'. It is essentially what they do in the movie, so who has seen it will understand. In practice 'eliminate stuff uncomfortable '? I've been stuck in the Italian 'hunters', but nothing to do with a girlfriend. We accept suggestions ♥


JACKY - SHING MURAKAMI



parents Jacky left him soon after his birth, and when he began to understand things, grew up in the 'Children's House'. He knew his situation and no one had told him. Jacky hide his true feelings before others. Even if it is open only Toppo, who was in a situation similar to yours, sociable person is one of only a facade, and his heart was never satisfied.
One day, Mac came to the orphanage. Mac had just lost her parents never spoke to anyone and was always alone. Jacky probably saw himself in one day he saw Mac Mac that was abused by some children, and ran to save it. That was the first time he expressed his feelings. Since then, Jacky, and Mac are united by a deep bond. Later, Jacky saved Johnny, who was also targeted by others, and welcomed him in the group; Toppo also helped to find his parents. Jacky takes care of his friends more than anyone more.
Ever since I was a child, Jacky has always had a strong interest and obsession with food. After Mac began working in a factory, Jacky began to work part-time at a nearby restaurant. He had the dream to open his own restaurant, but there was a certain incident that forced him to leave the restaurant where he worked, and it was then that Mac invited him to join his team of 'hunters'.


TOPPO - SHOT Yasuda



Toppo was accepted into the 'Children's House' a few months after his birth. He was always with Jacky, the orphanage that was his roommate. Their characters were exactly the opposite: to communicate with people Toppo was painful, so usually ended up playing cards or Kendama (wooden game) alone.
In eight years, had the sudden urge to go find his parents. Churches of their masters to the orphanage, but they knew nothing. Then Toppo spoke with Jacky, who at midnight was able to enter the room where the documents were kept and to find some information on them.
few years later, Jacky Toppo revealed in the secret of his birth. The Toppo's father was the head of one of the greatest gangster in Kansai, the mother was his mistress. The gang knew that the police was looking for, so, to protect from danger Toppo, sent him to an orphanage. A few days later, both his parents were killed during a fight between gangs. Toppo was very difficult to accept the fact that her parents were no longer alive, but he was also relieved that the secret of his birth, which tormented him for some time, it was finally revealed.
Since then, Toppo studied hard and graduated from high school. He loved video games, and was very famous in the world of online gaming, everyone knew him. After graduation he worked in a computer company, but he kept them a lot, so he decided to join the 8UPPERS to start something new.


MAC - YOU Yokoyama



With his personality naturally predisposed to the control, Mac is basically the leader of 8UPPERS.
was accepted in the 'Children's Hose' after losing both parents in a car accident at the age of five years. After Jacky helped him against other children, began to crescere come un istigatore. All’età di 13 anni, Mac iniziò a formare il suo gruppo. Vi fece entrare Toppo e Johnny, e iniziò ad andare d’accordo con Ace e Arsenal, che facevano sempre risse nell’orfanotrofio, così come Gum, conosciuto per essere il più forte di tutti.
A 15 anni, Mac iniziò a lavorare part-time in una fabbrica, e grazie al suo carattere divenne il responsabile del suo settore. Aveva anche un hobby segreto, guardare film; sembrava che le cose andassero bene per Mac, fino a quando ci fu un certo incidente e venne licenziato dalla fabbrica.
Dopo molti alti e bassi, iniziò gli business 'hunter' with Jacky. 8UPPERS created the group, invite your friends that you could trust, as Toppo and Johnny Ace and Arsenal, and Gum. 8
Mac devised rules for 8UPPERS, who could only work against those who, according to them, were evil.


JOHNNY - Tadayoshi OHKURA



Johnny's family was split when he was 5 years.
His eyes were always half-hearted, always looked as if something far away. Thanks to his good looks, the 'Children's House' was very popular with the opposite sex, but this attracted the envy of the other guys, so that was the victim of horrific acts of bullying.
But Johnny has never been shown to have suffered. No matter what was mistreated, kept looking toward the other as if to say, 'Well, who cares'. And the level and amount of bullying increased.
One day he was told to go to the incinerator in the orphanage, and was mistreated while Jacky was to save it. Jacky tried to protect him making him join his group. Since then, Johnny began to spend his time with Jacky and Johnny Mac
loved children and was known for taking care of younger children of the orphanage. Apparently Johnny seemed cold, but inside was nicer than anyone else. After leaving the orphanage, he worked in a bar and also as a model for magazines. A boy who knew during that time he offered to open a bar together, but Johnny was betrayed and left with many debts. This time too he was aided by Jacky.
Together, they began to work as 'hunters' and began to pay off the debt. That's why Johnny Jacky considered as something more than a brother.


GUM - Ryuhei MARUYAMA



Gum was born as the fourth successor to the dojo of Shorinji Kempo. However, he was not the son of the true wife, and was always treated as an enemy and was severely disadvantaged. Gum left the dojo after losing his mother, and entered the 'Children's House'. Gum
had never opened his heart to anyone, but he and Ace, who fought with him every day, they began to like each other. In addition, Gum began to be increasingly popular orphanage due to its natural way of doing. He was usually calm, but when it was time to fight was always in the front row, and then within the groups that caused the riots, was appreciated as a valuable aid.
The only thing that could comfort Gum were cats. He always carried in his bag a carton of milk and canned cat food, and was always ready to feed the cats. Gum
At 18 he decided to go to the dojo to greet his father. However, the point where once there was a dojo, was built a new building. After his father became ill, the dojo had not had many followers, and could not help but close. When Gum abdo to visit his ailing father, he took his hand and, with tears coming down, asked him to apologize. He died a few weeks later. Gum
decided to work for 8UPPERS to earn the money to rebuild the dojo.


ARSENAL - Subaru Shibutani



Arsenal also reached the 'Children's House' shortly after his birth. He was aggressive as a child, and loved to play with toy guns and knives. At 9 years old, an older child gave him a gun broke, and since then Arsenal became passionately interested in air guns compressed air and other military objects. He also liked western movies, and his obsession with the revolver rather than for automatic pistols began to grow in that period. In those days Arsenal
met Ace, which seemed to be a fight every day. Under the influence of Ace, even Arsenal began to get interested in boxing, and Ace to join in his fights. A high
Arsenal that no one knows is that his hobby is to go to karaoke alone. In addition, he has always continued to draw. His abstract paintings are sketches of his daily life.
not just turned 18, joined Arsenal in forces for self-defense. He continued to follow a strict workout and started wondering if that was what I really wanted to do. One night he left the barracks and called Ace. After hearing that Ace had dropped to boxing, which he hoped would continue, Arsenal began to ask questions. He left for self-defense forces and joined the 8UPPERS to find himself and to stay with his friends.


ACE - Ryo Nishikido



Police rescued Ace age of 3 years, when he discovered that his parents abused him.
Since then he lived at the 'Children's House' and, for him, the orphanage was not a bad place. Became interested in boxing because of a manga that he read at the age of 8 years. His father was a boxer, which Ace did not know.
Ace was constantly fighting and practicing boxing. One day he found himself facing a difficult opponent. Gum was, said to be the strongest of the orphanage. Ace did not matter how many times asked him to fight, he could never beat Gum. However, perseverance Ace showed that despite all the times he had lost, began to open their hearts to Gum.
When she was about 17 years, they found a problem that the eye did not pass the exam to become a professional boxer. Ace had nothing to lean on, and began to be emotionally disturbed.
was then that Arsenal, who went to the orphanage in the period, contacted him. He told Arsenal have failed the exam to become professional, and gave him encouragement that he touched his heart. Jacky also invited him to open his heart, which tended to close in on itself. Sweat poured under the blue sky began to change. It was thus that he began to face the loneliness that lies ahead and which could not talk to anyone.
Ace continues to train in the gym, but decided not to become a professional boxer, and joined the 8UPPERS.

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Hearts' bounds [3/4]

Title: Hearts' bounds
Genre: angst, yaoi
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Disclaimer: these people do not belong to me, and though I belonged they would live happily ever after >. \u0026lt;
Notes: After 'is not a fanfiction', I decided that I'd never written stuff that did not have a happy ending. Instead ... And we are falling back T_T
'divided into 4 parts, two from the perspective of Sho, two to Aiba. And the phrases found at the cone drawn from the song 'Desire' of the Baru and Yasu Kanjani8
Parties previous Part - Part

"Itsumo sou anata wo soba ni iru no? Inai no?
Watashi dake mou kowaresou nano ... "

" It's always like this, are you close to me? Or are you not?
I'm the only one that's about to break ... "

SHO

From the first time we spoke, you did nothing but make all my powder patterns. I never managed to translate into words your feelings, make a few simple phrases in your life.
But with you I have always wrong mathematical formula. And maybe that's why I finally had invented an out of nothing, that I stopped trying to read inside you to build him a new platform. Something more comfortable to handle, a mask to watch your face when it became too volatile and confused.
In fact, it's ironic: I spent years and energy to not consider us in a superficial way, to show that the idol had a brain, so that everything would be oversimplified, and with you I have always tried to do the opposite. To let violence. Mutilate your desires, you fly low, perhaps for fear of falling you would have broken. Or maybe you should wish to prevent escape. But not you, I never said, I've never asked. Stay with me. Other people
not had a hard time understanding you, you have always been an open book for all, just look to see what were you thinking, what they feel. Jun We could, we could Nino. Even Ohno, always lost in his world, could predict your moves with ease. I, however, I always lost, as if looking for a maze in a straight road.
and when we were in the maze really I just go on regardless of the curves, opening the way through the bushes with a knife and a gun to ward off the bad thoughts.
After you had called home for the first time, I thought you hated me, and that there would be no opportunity to speak to me outside of work.
And in the end also seemed logical: you and I belong to worlds so different that even suggest the possibility of a friendship seemed surreal to me, a joke that did not laugh much.
With you, it was always different, and I do not think that had to do with physical attraction. Or at least not only. In our case it probably makes more sense to speak generally of chemical . There was something that made us gravitate toward one another and always pushed us to disagree, for any topic. Hydrogen and oxygen are incompatible by birth. And yet inextricably linked and necessary to life.
They had all realized, even if I refused to talk about it. After all, what could I say? That even if you were the exact opposite of me and the type of guy that I usually feel attracted to, I could not stop thinking? That even I understood what the problem was?
Maybe we should thank Jun and his appendicitis. Or maybe not.
What is certain is that I would not have gone to visit him in hospital with you. We two alone for more.
I was aware as I was sitting at his desk with books spread before him, and tried not to look at the clock, not to hear the ticking of the hands that were moving toward the time when you would knock on my door.
I stood up at the first sound of the bell instead.
And the rest of the afternoon went well, wraps around you and your words. The distance between us that I felt, I felt irritation to grow As time passed and the wall between us grew. The sense of loss that I could not admit to feeling star.
In fact, I felt great expectations for this meeting. Even while I was dressing to go out, do not I allowed myself to think that this afternoon I had in store for something other than the fact of words followed by awkward silences. Of course I did not think could be a start.
I remember the anxiety, more than anything else. A voltage in the muscles of the shoulders, a burning sensation in the pit of my stomach was a shadow of a pain, rather than a real nuisance.
Perhaps it was when I saw you at the door of the house that the node that gripped my throat melted. Maybe my chronic pessimism led me to think that I'd stood him up and you'd be gone by Jun on your behalf.
I can not say.
The only thing certain is that as soon as I saw the first hint of your smile, I was smiling too.

"Hey"
"Hello"

Then you had a different way of moving. Even if you spent the time studying the best strategies to move your body, did not have the confidence that you have now. The actual knowledge that others will observe. That conviction that today adheres to your skin and that allows you to enter into any space and attract all eyes. And not because you're famous.
were probably aware of your beauty, but were not sure yet what it could get.
, moreover, had only twenty. It seems incredible to think that we were so young when everything is started. He almost laughed.
or cry, maybe.
Why is it easy to forgive some mistakes, when you send back the memory and seek alternative solutions. It is easy to forgive all the truth suppressed. But no loss decreases the awareness of the posting. And realize that we were too young to get it right, too small to hope to stay together forever, does not erase our mistakes. Neither changes the fact that we could not resist forever.
However, there was no alternative. There never was.
Even as she turned her head sideways to remove the blush that threatened me and stop to fix your smile, and spied the corner of the movement of the shoulders beneath his jacket, while I watched you start away a lock of hair from her face, I knew that I could not go back.
I do not know what would have happened if we had not had any argument to overcome the embarrassment. Perhaps the silence was even more glacial, your smile less convinced. And I'd begun to consider the idea of taking off of him.
Or maybe we would have done before what we would have done later. It was only a matter of a couple of hours, however. Jun
But there was a bed, some floor above us, which was expecting a visit by his teammates.

"What happened?"
shrug.
"I do not really like hospitals. I do remember "
" This time is different, but "
" Yes .. "
" Jun has nothing serious, do not worry "

do not know if it was the reassurance to calm down, or if your nervous system were not expected to stay in power for so long. It's always been your fortune, this, or your weakness, if you look at it from a Another point of view. Socialize with anyone you know, to convince even the most reluctant person to relax the nerves and start talking. The success may not be immediate with everyone, sometimes you have to work hard, but the end result has always been a surrender.
I listened to you talk about your family, and episodes of your childhood without even realizing that the discomfort was evaporated. Even the air had changed. The nurse looked at us, as we passed, and you smiled at them, but the feeling was that it was a sort of reflex, because he kept talking and did not seem to pay attention to everything which is not your speech.

"I think there is not much used to it. Then that day I drank beer, and beer, for me, is even worse. That is, it gives me a funny drunk ... "
palm against the door, the new department. Turn right.
"It's usually sways the world, but the beer is as if I swayed. I do not know why. I have always done ... "

Should I consider a miracle that we lost there, whereas you did not have the slightest idea where to go and that my sense of direction was too biased towards any direction decides take your body to pay attention to which room we were to look for.
I did not realize to what you hated hospitals, than I was worried about what Jun and what I had had marked success, until I found myself looking at you sitting on the chair beside her bed, curled up almost about yourself to seem less high, the low voice while asking him if he was sure to feel good. The facial features
serious. In your eyes there was a sincere concern that you could not pretend or exaggerate. It hit me like a punch in the stomach knowing that you were there with me. For years, you were part of my life, even without the I agree.
remember that he was a long look in the wake of that reflection.
The hair on the neck, body lines visible under the shirt of cotton. Studied the importance of your cheekbones, the cut of your eyes and the profile of the jaw. We listened to him.
For as long as we stayed there, I have not said more than ten words. Jun
me silent glances, sometimes perplexing, sometimes fun, and you do not turn around to see if I even still there.
is strange. I should have felt ignored.
Instead I had the feeling that you do not lose my every move.
And when we left the room Jun and walked back along the road that had brought us there, I wondered what was born from the silence that had found new space between us. For once, I did not think the alternatives. But I let my gait to be altered to fit you. And when, out of the hospital, I found the courage to look, I'm not surprised to see you smile.

"I believe that soon it will rain"
A Look at the sky and dark clouds swollen.
Wind chill, air supply.
"So it seems. We should hurry "
" Yeah, "
Silence.
"What we took from your house?"
"Twenty minutes, I think" Smile
more cautious now, when it starts to rain violently, suddenly.
"My house is two minutes. We can stop me, if you want. Drink "
" Until the rain stops "Smile
response evident.
"Okay,"

Only in this way, okay .
As if there was nothing else behind. As if that was what I was waiting, I wanted all along. I was hoping for.
I can not say I did not know where it would lead us the way we were taking. But I could not foresee this ending, or that would make me love you so bad. I could not know. And it certainly did not know neither do you.
But even if I had all the elements in hand, I know I would have responded in exactly the same way.
Because of all the regrets that fill my life, that is perhaps the only decision which the rain has not yet been able to wash away the taste.
And I wish I could believe that is the same for you, I'd still have that question, which will force you again in my life. I wish I could believe that our story would not be the first thing we will delete it. But it is difficult
illusion when the memory burns me in front of your eyes when your words echo in my mind and strike me as scratches. It is difficult to hope when the silence is so deafening.
When every day your eyes are indifferent, the voice comes only with the hum of the camera in the background. When you breathe into the receiver of the phone comes from so far away, and there in front of your body to achieve. Just wait. And then, the sound of dry when you stop the conversation. The movement of the hand moving down to lower mechanical the receiver. While
out the window the rain falls thick as that day. But this time, there are more ways to go. Neither
response.

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Hearts' bounds [2/4]

Title: Hearts' bounds
Genre: angst, yaoi
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Disclaimer: these people do not belong to me, and though I belonged to them would live happily ever>. \u0026lt;
Notes: After 'is not a fanfiction', I decided that I'd never written stuff that did not have a happy ending. Instead ... And we are falling back T_T
'divided into 4 parts, two from the perspective of Sho, two to Aiba. And the phrases found at the cone drawn from the song 'Desire' of the Baru and Yasu Kanjani8
Parties previous Part

"Tsuretette doko demo and atashigoto
Kitsuku Daite anata dake de yogoshite"

"Take me anywhere, all of me
Hold me tightly, you are the only one to mess me up"

AIBA

The night after the first test group Arashi, I could not sleep.
could hear the rain beating on the panes of the window and watched the bluish light that was gathering in the folds of the sheets. I looked at my hands, fists open.
I never felt that way.
During the tests, that day, I just tried not to think. At seventeen distraction is not particularly difficult, just focus energies on their movements, to move faster. With the illusion of being able to leave behind everything else.
I was stuck directly in the shower, when I was back in the locker room, and while the water I ran on his face I realized clearly that the rush was to avoid having to hear, not to have to see. I could not
eastward.
I could not understand why the bodies of my friends make me so suddenly a strange effect. I found myself looking at them differently, as if they saw for the first time.
And for the first time his eyes lingered on the curves of immature muscles, on the trails wet that drops of sweat on his shoulders drew on the veins of the arms.
I wish I could say that the attraction for you was aware, in those early days. But in reality it was an earthquake underground, further disruption of land already undermined by what was happening around us. Already too unstable.
Maybe if those days were normal-Arashi if they never existed, if we were not forced to see each other almost every day, for many years - I would only record your eyes and imagine it in the damp white sheets. Maybe for a few minutes, the time allowed usually to my fantasies.
But then I continued my normal life. And you would have faded into the background, Sho.
Sometimes I wonder as I did and wait years before they see you turn into fire, when they already have your input in my life was like a stream of water. Water percolating through the cracks, slipping on things.
My reluctance to approach initially stemmed mainly from fear of the flat sea. And slow erosion that can dig the water. Of anything that turns even the rock.
I remember was that, the feeling sharper in the early days to drown.
reeling to stay afloat, look away from the bustle of people around me not to recall the calm of your own. I thought
by contrast, paradoxically.
Why were you so different from the people around me, that I evoked their presence, almost.
The sculpted bodies of other men. And your sunk in a shirt too big the first time we met.
The deafening screams of the people. And your talking in a low voice, your silence.
The feeling that I could ask anything, and that would have been able to respond to anything.
Then I could not imagine that it would be just for those answers your fucking consistent, I'd hated so much. I did not know that I hated myself so much for all those naive questions.
And I could not know that, secretly, I photographed many times your hands, just to be able to tear up the prints. To feel more adult than you, for a time. More cruel.
probably that day, not even looked at your hands when introduced us remember having studied your face, throwing quick glances over your hips. That he wanted to rub your thumb against your cheek smooth.
But then came the night, every day.
And suddenly your hands were everywhere, portrayed in the elongated shape of the fingers. Draw on the lines of my body.
bones, nerves and veins.
awareness of each movement.
and had not yet seen as clenching his fists, Sho. I never felt your touch on me. Inside of me.
all began there, from your hands.
And I am sure that of your hands was also the last picture of you, away from work, you stole, before you would go away. While tightened his fingers around the handle of the bag, as he closed the door.
'Fuck' I thought.
Just like the day after, in the locker room, when I realized I was not being able to even walk past the shower without feeling chills.
I should worry about Arashi, in reality, of what I was - we were - going to meet.
But I was completely blown away by the news. The axis of rotation had been my perception, and now find balance seemed impossible. The bodies, which until then had been mere flesh, were now empty stomach. The touch had become dizzy.
I had no experience. I had not ever had to manage an attraction so strong, it was as if I did not know where to rest your eyes. The center of gravity had shifted completely to you.
I remember the first time I've invited to your house, when it had already turned twenty.
watched your father, I heard him speak, but struggled to untie my attention from where you were sitting.
chair.
to my right.
The feeling crazy to feel your presence.
Even the way in which your father gave me the head was smoking, I was like drunk. My throat was dry. I was thirsty.

"I bring you something to drink? Beer? Wine? "
" Coca-Cola, thank you "
" Coca-Cola? "Eyebrow arched.
"Mom, we have Coca-Cola in the house?"
"Try to look at, maybe you bought your brother. I do not know "

I wanted to bury them, right then and there.
The diversity of your world was a constant trap. I wanted to know the alphabet of your language, then. Sapermici grant.
not remember when did I started to buy Coca-Cola not only to buy wine, as if to emphasize my differences for simple revenge.
I would have given their lives to drink your glass, Sho. Listen to your own taste, place the Footprint of your lips. But I never gave an inch, even when I was ill. Even while I was losing.
And it was a war that lasted years.
Stare at your own pace to walk more slowly, or faster. Some days I was so tired that I just wanted to give up, raise your arms and let me hit. Let you go, once and for all.

"So what is going to college?"
"Well, thank you"
"Are you studying economics, right?"
"Yes"
"Do you have l & rsquo , air steward, in effect "
" I say it often. Not that it's a great compliment, but ... "
" No, but it was not intended ... had the effect of ... "
" Here, guys. Sho wine and Coca-Cola for Aiba-kun. There was half a bottle on the shelf, I hope not too outgassing "

I drank in one gulp.
I never had great difficulty sustaining a conversation, or rather, the problem was that usually chatted to freewheel. And it has been.
With you, however, did not know what to say.
My friends ranged from the popular kids in school during adolescence to those known in the agency. I could hardly conceive of someone who was studying economics.
And even later, Sho, when they leave you alone in the kitchen with your books to go out with friends ... even when your books swept them away with angry gestures. Even then, I wanted to follow you.
Having your brain to understand those texts, to share with you a conversation that you might find interesting, challenging. Be me, what turns you on his mind.
certain things I could not give them to you, and never can.
Inside of me I do not have that instinct and passion, nothing particularly interesting. You, with your knowledge, you have always been several steps ahead of me.
I should have realized that the kindness that I reserved were not due to lack of confidence in me, that I've never treated like a child. But you were different. And I, that night when I visited home for the first time, I reacted in the only way I knew: by raising the barriers. Pretending your own safety, staring straight into eyes.
I have always believed that one day I'd left. Not necessarily for another man, but to other stimuli, for something they knew fully involved.
And just to keep you with me, I always tried to hide what I was. To show to be adult, mature. At first I thought that I would have exposed it now: it would be very easy for you. Instead
the days passed, and years passed, and my masks held up.
often thank heaven for their good fortune, and usually I did when I stayed up all night just to watch you sleep next to me. Full lips touch you with a thumb, you whispered words that I said even on his deathbed, if you were been awake to hear me.
But it was often frustration, anger, resentment. Why did you not see me just meant that I was not interested in seeing me, Sho. You, who spent evenings to analyze a paragraph of your books, you had no interest in studying me.
And many times I was about to do something extreme, just to make sure you were paying attention: jumping on the table and put me to dance like crazy was not very different from a knife to peel the fruit on the wrist while .
many years so would kill any relationship. We, however, tied for eternity.

Implantation Bleeding Pink Mucus

lazy lazy lazy

Yesterday I start over the university classes

Type the first two days, I learn with great disappointment that the people with whom I was usually because they are shamefully back with the exams, have decided not to attend the first half pe ril to give two thousand exams in November (I am aware that it is impossible, right? O_o). Ergo, in these two days I made the commitment to find a nice face in the crowd and sit next to its owner. Yesterday I failed, but this morning I found a lonely girl and I've stuck button
XD Actually I joined a different group of people I know, the so-called (by me) the group of mannequins. So-called because they are filthy rich

-brand dress from head to foot-
are able to spit on me if you do not dress like them or if you're ugly / fat / poor / normal
But frankly, I prefer to keep wide. Enough for me when I greet all sugary as soon as we crossed. Not that I belong to the people they elect, the designer clothes in my closet are few, so in theory should deal with rejection. Not only do because I know some of them from kindergarten, and they know that should not piss me off XD
But while today I had a person that I thought that was normal at my right hand and an empty seat to the left, yesterday .. . er. On the right there was a girl instead of 'regional standards' wrote 'jounali standards' on the left was a couple that I tried to make a child during the lesson ...
Oh well, I should be pleased that this year I will not lecture in a theater into disuse, but in a classroom. Oh, what a nice change to have a table on which rest the book!

changed the subject. Just five minutes ago I saw the pv of LC5. Yes, I know that the name does not say anything to anyone. In practice there is the singer of Antic Cafe, I am the first Japanese group I met, and that at the beginning of 2010 were virtually disbanded T_T
Nothing ago strano vedere il cantante del primo gruppo che ho conosciuto, che ho amato, messo con altre persone. Ero abituata a vederlo in abiti tutti colorati con altri 4 idioti, ora è vestito di nero con 4 (o erano 3?) personaggi indefiniti T_T
Mi è tornata un po' la tristezza per lo scioglimento del gruppo. Devo davvero tanto agli AnCafè. Cazzo, se conosco gli Arashi è merito loro, praticamente. Ah...

What's In Digesticure?

Hearts' bounds [1/4]

Titolo: Hearts' bounds
Genere: angst, yaoi
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Disclaimer: queste persone non mi appartengono, e anche se mi belonged to them would live happily ever>. \u0026lt;
Notes: After 'is not a fanfiction', I decided that I'd never written stuff that did not have a happy ending. Instead ... And we are falling back T_T
'divided into 4 parts, two from the perspective of Sho, two to Aiba. And the phrases found at the cone drawn from the song 'Desire' of the Baru and Yasu Kanjani8

"Soba ni iru noni aitai

Hora kyou mo Tookie "

" I want to see you even though you're
See right there, even today you Seem so distant "

SHO

You would have thought that we'd end up like this?
that day when all five of us gathered in a room for the first time, tearing one of my usual afternoon study, you would have imagined what was waiting for us?
Or maybe you thought it would all become friends, we'd have fun, we would have done what everyone expected from us, without any major hitches.
Maybe, without changing so much life.
Sometimes I wonder if you would have said not to have a passport, if I had known the final would be this. If you'd rather not put my head under the shower and you ignore what caused the bodies of your fellow next to you.
thoughts are not honest, I grant you.
You always had too much courage and you've always been too stubborn to turn his head away. If you had not done that day forward, I'd do the next one, I'm sure of this.
time, however, did not know.
I did not know anything about you. Only that you were a kid that was put in my own group, with whom I had to work indefinitely, and you were too good to be able to ignore as I did with others, too beautiful to look at you with contempt.
Perhaps even too good to let hate.
In the bottom you have always been. Even after our many fights. All the times you hurt me, when I thought it would be much easier to let go. I never found the courage to do so.
And now that I did I would just go back and stay all these words, remove the bitterness from your eyes.
I was never brave like you. I never even pretended to be.
He looked lost, that first day.
They explained everything, you seemed not to hear. Or maybe just trying not to think too much, because it absolutely did not want to back out, whatever what had been. Perhaps you wanted to seem stronger than what you are, as you always have.
probably already the first time I've deceived.
I did not know anything about you, I knew nothing of your smiles, or the burning passion that lay behind them.
What is certain, I could not give in to the impulse to protect you. Tell
to think, to calculate the risks, would be a betrayal to you and to my own feelings. I wonder if this impulse stemmed from the fact that in some way already predict what the future would have tied. Or maybe it was your eyes he had awakened in me that tenderness did not think I have.
If it was your fault or my fault. Or we would have become of us and that now lies shattered at our backs, which was destroyed in pieces too small to be put back together.
Maybe it was a bit 'all this.
What I know for sure is that I had ulterior motives when I asked you to leave me your number. Although gaze slid over your shoulder while you lean to scribble on a sheet of paper, even though I could not help notice the subtle flexing of muscles and the construction of the back. Although it is impossible to deny that it felt even then that need for touch . It was not what
guide my movements, there was no more or less elaborate plan, no real desire, either.
In all honesty, the first time I saw it I thought that we would never have become friends, and me, nor that we would have developed any other type of bond. Facts have proven
soon as I was wrong, that first afternoon. But
predict the future is difficult, even when you think you have the tools. Even when you think you hold it between your fingers to tighten. And I
between his fingers had only a crumpled piece of paper, with your number written in a hurry. A note directed to me nearly aseptic as a courtesy, like a person passing through. Who could imagine how many rides would you have done in my life?
How could I believe that what had to happen eventually happened?

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FOUR


FOUR,
the only fiction that dear BuFr (me) has so far posted in the ether, was successfully transferred to the EFP and continues steadily. A brief summary
so far?
Christian is a loser with no paranormal powers, do not make it cool at all. But it's so tender and sweet, the perfect ball for the sadistic puncing author.
Christian has visions of the future that often lead to embarrassing situations, has a messy family from where you run screaming in the big city and also found a best friend who is crazy obsessed with him losing virginity (not in person, though. XD Too easy!).
What else? Oh right, the most important issue.
There are three men so cool for some reason - even unknown to the author - Christian covets.
Will is a policeman from the irreproachable character, who can not stand even the sight of Christian, despite condivisibilissimi intentions, it more or less cooked.
Tyler is an adorable character from the musician who falls in love at first sight, Christian, do not give more.
Harry is a bad boy bastard who lives at the limits of law and that has more or less decided to join Christian in their pants at all costs. And they hate Tyler. Those who choose
, Christian?
And what will pull out of the axle sleeve to the author, and meanwhile the city where you live, the quartet is slowly besieged by evil spirits?
not ask him, I do not even know her. But he enjoys it a lot.

E 'online from today, the first part of Chapter 9:

Immorality


Section Supernatural, Yaoi, Rating: Red

Jelly Bracelet Meanings 2010

XI

Title: XI
Genre: collection
Pairing: none
Rating: safe
Disclaimer: Arashi not belong to me u_u
Notes: therefore Like all (?) know, today is the eleventh anniversary of Arashi. On this occasion, I publish a collection of eleven short 'stories', all from the perspective of Aiba, reflections on the most significant events since joining in Johnny's, on his relationship with Arashi in general and its individual members. Some information was gathered from interviews and video, others have been invented from scratch

XD I will not dwell on what they mean Arashi for me. Simply, what happened to me with them I had never happened before. I can never quite bless the day I discovered their existence. ♥ Happy Anniversary


-Well, Aiba-san, one last question and ended.
He nodded with a smile to the reporter of one of the usual magazines they work with monthly, after the last controlled the notes, the man made his demand:
-What 's for her happiness?
had not been able to answer, he had apologized to the journalist, saying he could not give an answer on time, but that perhaps he should think about. The man had not broken, but gave him his business card, telling him to call when he got the answer.
driving home, he continued to ruminate on the interview. Usually there were not that kind of problems, the questions were always similar and were repeated from year to year, so that now had the responses almost ready for certain subjects. There was never a question that had not been able to answer ... after finishing high school, of course: if they did an interview with the historical or geographical theme, things were very different.
The fact was that in almost 28 years, had never stopped to think of a thing. the world there were so many beautiful things, so many things that made him happy: his family, on sunny days, gigs, curry, baseball, animals ... The things I liked were so many. But happiness, for him, was it?
Once you're at home, as Every evening, there was no one waiting to give you welcome back, it was so since he left the house of his, and now we had got used to get depressed and had stopped whenever he came home. That evening he had done very late, so she had nibbled some scraps from the night before, had made a quick bath and went to bed.
However he could not sleep, as he turns in bed, his eyes had settled on the double frame that was on the nightstand. The photo on the left goes back many years before, and he withdrew, Jun, Nino, Sho and Ohno in Hawaii at the time of its debut, the right was taken two weeks earlier, on the evening of birthday Jun, and those were the same.
His eyes moved from one photo to another, comparing the children of the first uncomfortable with the relaxed and smiling in the second.
"It's been a while ..."
Continuing to look at their faces, a strange calm fell upon him, and soon fell asleep with a serene smile on his face.
That night he dreamed of many things, all somehow related to Arashi, the day of his audition, the day when he met Jan, one in which Nino had cried before him to her parents' divorce, that he had discovered Arashi's debut. There he could not to learn the choreography, he danced and sang in a stadium full of people. All
along with four other members of Arashi.
Upon awakening, the first thing he did was call the number indicated on the card that was given the day before and knew the answer. If you thought the word 'happiness', appeared in his mind a single kanji.
-Forgive me for now ...
"Do not worry ... So has the answer? "
-Arashi. To me happiness is to Arashi.
Maybe it was stupid and trivial, and could also look artificial, but it was the truth, was what he felt.
Over the last eleven years his life had been with and for Arashi. He could not imagine a world in which they exist, in which five of them were separated and they had never met ... now his mind is not conceived as such thoughts. Arashi were fantastic, that's what he thought every day.
in a good mood, he was headed to the bathroom and, for once, he allowed himself time to see his reflection in the mirror.
He liked to think that his appearance had changed since she was small, it was more mature, but his smile always seemed to those of a child and people still call it 'Aiba-chan'. Maybe it was not changed that much after all.
Even with the knowledge that he could not stop smiling. He loved his life.
had passed 11 years after the debut of Arashi, 14 since he joined the Johnny's Jimusho.
It was not yet able to play basketball with SMAP.
Well, she thought with a shrug, he had four people to whom he could always ask to play with him.

Circle Scarf Directions

XI

Title: XI
Genre: collection
Pairing: none
Rating:
safe Disclaimer: I do not belong Arashi u_u
Notes: therefore, like all (?) know, today is the eleventh anniversary of Arashi. On this occasion, I publish a collection of eleven short 'stories', all from the perspective of Aiba, reflections on the most significant events since joining in Johnny's, on his relationship with Arashi in general and with individual States. Some information was gathered from interviews and video, others have been invented from scratch

XD I will not dwell on what they mean Arashi for me. Simply, what happened to me with them I had never happened before. I will never enough to bless the day I discovered their existence. ♥ Happy Anniversary


If he had been asked the question 'What person would you be?', Aiba he answered: 'A guy like Sakurai-kun'.
beginning did not like much. Not because it was unpleasant, but because he could not understand that he was doing there with them. It seemed apparent that Sho did not want to be with Arashi, since they always put her studies in the first place, not an idol thought that attending a prestigious university such as Keio (or an idol who just attended a university) was admirable, for he was just a selfish thing. Each of them had made choices and had to give up something for the good of the group, while Sho had not given up anything, keeping a foot in both camps.
Aside from its selfish, slowly began to consider it a pretty nice guy and kind, and he liked the way it was rap, but had never managed to forge a special bond: indeed, a part of the work, what else could talk to a guy like Sho? He was convinced that the other guy was not much interested in him, and that it considered frivolous and boring.
Things were a bit 'changed with the beginning of the program' Mago Mago Arashi ', where he and Sho had gathered to make a couple in most cases. Working together, without others around, had enabled him to reach out as they never managed to do until then, and there Aiba had understood what kind of person he was really Sho Sakurai.
They talked about many things, Sho had told him of his desire to study at university, and the joy she felt in having a college degree. He was aware of the fact that, to pursue his dream, had caused some inconvenience to the group, and he knew that, unlike her, people like Nino had to give up their aspirations. He had confessed that he did not know if ashamed of his behavior or be proud of, certainly did not regret his choices.
When she asked an opinion, Aiba did not know what to answer, until then had regarded as a boy Sho affable and kind, but also selfish and thinking only of himself. But to hear those things, having worked closely with him for many days, having so much fun with him, was unable to define that person as an egoist. With many pairs of granny who had visited, the wall was between them had begun to show cracks, and then collapse completely after a few months since the program began when Aiba had read his letter.
crying, she could not sing, and even being on stage, and Sho had embraced. In front of thousands of people. There was no significance in the romantic gesture, but his heart was strictly the same, because for the first time in five years, had heard the boy next to him. With that hug he wanted to say 'I'm here. I'm your friend '. And he had received.
Since that time, not just a friendship was born, but also an admiration unbounded by Aiba. He opened his eyes to the difficulties that Sho had faced: not only about the difficult decision to attend university, but also the hostility towards his father's career idol intended to take. Sho had been fighting against his father's opposition, and from there Aiba had realized that was not true that he did not care anything about the Arashi and work. Sho
admired not only because it was serious and intelligent, but also because he knew behave very stupid if you turn on the television, it could become ridiculous in the manner worse with their four and half an hour after it wrapped in a tailored suit who read the news of the day and preaches economy and politics. Sho drew so ashamed, he could not do a backflip (but not a forward somersault), was a piece of wood, had no hobbies and he was completely denied any recreational and sporting activities: he knew it and was quietly taken into bullied by other, often increased the coverage he dose.
In all the years they spent together, Aiba had not heard once boasting of his results list or something but he had only ever heard about his drooping shoulders. Sho was humble. One day, however, had
Clark Kent discovered that his staff was nothing but a fairly normal person. Fantastic, but normal.
Kokoritsu was on stage to try the steps before the concert along with Nino, when they heard behind them a bang and a cry of pain when they went to see that Sho had seen holding a hand.
Despite the fracture, and gypsum, Sho had still wanted to continue the tests, although of course they had to make some changes in the choreography. When watching him, Sho seemed very depressed, even if put it all to work at the most.
-I am creating a lot of problems.
She had told him one evening, after the tests. It was true that since the accident all had to work twice, but no one, Aiba in the first place, had never thought it was a nuisance, or it was the fault of Sho.
-Do not be silly, Sho-chan. We see it all as it is difficult for you and what you're trying. Do not worry.
Sho had been for a while 'in silence, and then murmured with a bitter smile:
-So that was how you felt, that time ...
Tonight Sho Aiba had understood that he loved him and that he had always understood how he felt, and that his idol was a simple human being. However, in his eyes, Sho shine on his own when he failed miserably.